Life is changing

It’s been a while since my last entry, maybe due to the reason I have lost my reason to write, or maybe I am not inspire to share my life with others anymore. Both of my previous employments showed crystal clear that life is not fair, how hard, how nice and how good you are, it will never be fair. But the best part is, what goes around comes around, I am using all the surviving skills that I learned and used them to my advantage, and now I am working own my own, and chasing my dream of opening a language center for individual of all ages to fall in love with English. And now I believe that my heart also deserve the chance to actually fall in love and be loved. Hmm, to who should I gave it too, to who should I uttered the word I LOVE YOU, only time will tell, and it is getting stronger and more willing to let someone in.

Is my heart beginning to soften up, or my stubbornness is finally giving in or maybe the gap in my heart is finally being fill....Only I know the reason, and it is making me smile each and everyday...Tick tock Tick tock..ONLY TIME WILL TELL...

The best part about facebook is meeting old friends. From your kindy years, primary & secondary school, university years and previous employment. If we actually stop and ponder a bit, we would realize that we actually have a lot of friends throughout our phases in life. Some of those friends were responsible in shaping who we are today. All of those memories will last us for a long time of reunions. A lot of stories to reminisce among friends, values to pass to the next generations, and pictures to share, that we hold dear in our life. Maybe it is true that our life is a story waiting to be told and shared by all..."Life is interesting if we make it interesting.....It is a burden if we treat it as one..."

Monday Blues!!!

Is the feeling mutual?

Today is Monday...Duh!!! A lot of people are having the Blues, the MONDAY BLUES... What is MONDAY blues? A simple definition would be, sick or having a bad day on Monday, but if you are sick or having a bad day on any day of the week does the term change...example "Tuesday Blues, Friday Blues..."

Hmm, in my opinion Monday Blues means the 1st day of a working week, in which we are not looking forward to. Thus most of us feel that we are not in the mood to work.

Maybe these tips that can help in elevating the mood less scenario:-

a) Take a walk and admire what the week started off with.

b) Wear your best attire.

c) Listen to music

d) Create a club (everyone hate Monday club)

e) Eat your favorite food. 

I do hate Mondays...but it is the 1st Day of the Week and we cannot skip Monday directly to Friday.

Have a Nice Monday!!!!!!!!!

Chivalry and Courteousness

Today's topic is on chivalry and courteousness, two things that are basically decreasing in the moral value of some Malaysian. I've been travelling by commuter as mean of transportation to my work, at first it was interesting, and it is but what I notice is that how courteousness has depleted in some Malaysian. Shoving, pushing was the medium used to replace "Excuse me" ' Tumpang lalu". Even harassments were at large. The government plans to have special coaches for women should be praise, because, trust me, after going through it myself, women need to be treated with respect even in public transportation. School students show lack of moral value by acting as if they own the coaches, disrespects the right of others who are also passengers in the train. What are becoming of Malaysian? Where have the Chivalry and courteousness gone to? In text book, or only as part of syllabus in Islamic study as well as moral. Point to ponder, it maybe lame to say "excuse me" but it is something that we should be at practice, maybe one day the table turn and our own children will be the Practitioners of the latest trend of Malaysian, where rudeness rules!!!!!

How to survive a week in your workplace!!!

1. Surround yourself with positive and interesting friends.
2. Start and end your day with a smile.

3. If it does not affect you, don't bother to think too much.

4. Think of weekend and how to spend it.
5. Always expect the unexpected, and never look at surprises in a negative way.

Don't know if they actually work, but it works for me!!! Have fun trying.

Thanks..

I had an interesting lunch today...It's not the food but the company. I went for lunch with Julie Marlina, an old friend since my university years. Why is it interesting? Because we talked a lot and she makes me realize a lot of things, and she changed a lot, so different from the Julie I used to know and actually hate... 

5 reasons Why today's lunch was interesting...

a) I went out for lunch with someone other than my officemates

b) Ate at a place that I never knew existed even though been here for more than six months

c) I told her about my "so called relationship"

d) Talked about our life... The ups and downs

e) Was given the best advice ever...

And that 1 hour conversation, has given me the reason to actually smile for the day... Thanks Julie...

Insecurity!!!!!!

I am out of a relationship...and believe me, it’s a relief...A month with a guy who is so insecure is very tiring. Why do people feel insecure?? A question that would have different answers I guess. I also do have my insecurity, but as far as I know, it is a mindset. The more we think we have problems, the bigger it would seems to be. It is not denying, it's accepting it with a different perspective...... Well life goes on even though a relationship ended, what did not kill or hurt you...make u stronger!!!!!!!

A month has past....

A month has passed since I worked in Kuching...and it means a month and 12 days I left my second home...Frankly speaking I do miss all the things there, the students, the friends and even the class. Every day I often imagine what my life would be if I left, mostly negative things, maybe because staying at a place for a long time, makes us not confident of our own ability to survive. If I stayed maybe I would not have the opportunity to explore my own ability. Its true training and teaching are totally different... Now I am exploring my new found ability of creating a focus aims at the end of training...I am proud because I believe my students are falling in love with English...Tik...Tok...time is ticking, and I will be in Kuching for 2 and half months... A lot will change...

Counting the days......

Today, I am actually packing most of my stuffs in a box, and I stumbled upon pictures of students and program that I organized alongside my students, I smiled with each pictures that I hold in my hand, from Blood Donation Program "Berhibur sambil Menderma", school motivation programs, climbing Mount Senyum in Pahang, Serembang 'd' Seremban, Masih ada yang Sayang 1/2/3(A program to help single mothers, the needy and the poor, and also orphans), Tirai Ramadhan, Gempadah 50 (3 daerah) believe it or not we did when to 3 districts in N9 and help the people there in any way we can... and a lot more.. Memories after memories... I may not know whether I am making the right move or decision to let go all that I have put into and sacrifice for the past 6 years, looking at the students and wonders are there more that I can offer them. Most of the students in the picture, graduated with flying colors and still called and sometimes sms... I don't even know what to say actually today...because in my mind and heart there will always be a special place for those who have been a part of my life here. I just don't want to go and maybe looked back and say “I know I could do more for them, and perhaps be a part of their life in the place we called our second home".......

Courtesy : Travis 12 memories

Appreciation...

A short but a very meaningful word. Believe it or not, it actually takes me sometimes to consider whether to write or not to write about my current situation. As some may know that I am going to leave my current employment and move on to other organization. I do wonder am I worth that much until that my future employment is willing to wait and offer me again the post. It is nice to feel appreciated. Appreciation for some may seem over rated but it is a necessities. And believe me that what is lacking in some people today. Saying thanks or even doing something back to repay the kindness of a person may be classified as "not sincere" but logically speaking how we measure person sincerity. A person may sacrifice his or her time, his or her strength, his or her possession for something they believe in, 100% without a doubt, but the percentage will decrease if we fail to notice all the things that he or she have done and it will come to a time they feel as they are being used. My matrix friend once labeled me as a doormat, someone who is easily to be stepped on, a person that will have the word NO in her dictionary. That statement did make me very upset and vowed I am going to show her that I am not a doormat for that moment forth. But even it is hard for me to say, she was RIGHT... and I do thank her for introducing me to that word. All my friends who are close to me also say that "I am too nice that people take advantages and I am too ignorant to do anything... Like I said before, I choose to be used by others, maybe it’s time for me to reconsider is it wise to put my feeling and my heart over the choice that I know would hurt me more.... Think Naz, God gave us brain to think, eyes to see, ear to listen, mouth to speak... and heart to hold all of them together....

My officemates!!!!

My officemates for the year 2009, I am going to miss each one of them, 6 years of working here; there are a lot of memories, both good and bad.