Bersih 3.0

Even in Seremban today there was a small rally supporting Bersih 3.0 for a clean and fair election. I have nothing against the supporters, I do respect those who fight for a cause that they truly believe in. However it is saddening to see there are people who tainted the cause. 

Let there be peace in Malaysia. 

So beautiful

Objective

• Practice security measures to protect themselves
• Having emotional security
• Having a positive self-concept and identity 
• Dare to express their views and feelings
• Ability to interact with others
• Respect the feelings and rights of others, thus creating positive relationship with adults and peers.

Focus

• The main principle is the approach and content of learning should be compatible with the development of children and taking into account individual differences.
• No spoon feeding 
• Students are given the opportunity to think and solve problems
• Teachers teach by associating with the actual experiences of students.

For me this is so beautiful, and believe it or not this is the basis of curriculum in Malaysia. It's the basis for preschool education. Unfortunately this basis is not progressing as our education system grows to the secondary level. 

Now, people are so blind and caught up in the chase for who will rule Malaysia, they tend to forget the true fundamental of education and corrupt our education system with politic.

If there is a fight to do something right, I would fight for this "STOP POLITICIZING OUR EDUCATION SYSTEM." That is a fight worth joining. 

Bumper sticker

I read this one at the back of a Nissan yesterday....

"Curiosity didn't kill the cat, MY CAR did"

Show me the money!!!

Yesterday was my writing class, and my focus was argumentative essay. To give a general layout of what is argumentative essay, the issues that I asked at first were simple or better known in debate as "The banana round". Question such as "Should uniform be abolished?" "Banana is King of all fruits" & "Women make better teachers", it was fun seeing the points that were shared especially when it comes to women vs men. Then I gave them a current trending topic. "PTPTN should be abolished" These were the answers that I received in class;

Agree

a) Education should be made free for all. 

b) Since we are going to be paying taxes when we work, we are giving back to the government. 

c) PTPTN is generated through our parents' income tax.

d) All of services here have tax, we are being taxed for a lot of things. That alone generate income. 

Disagree

a) Don't abolished PTPTN just its interest. We should only pay back what has being lend to us.  

b) PTPTN is providing opportunities for lower income family to further studies in higher institutions.

c) Students need to be competitive in achieving better grades for better employment.

d) The higher institutions especially private are milking the money given from PTPTN to the students. 

It was supposed to be a writing class, but they end up debating. However thank God for the existence of the word HOMEWORK. (Hehehe)

****

If I write this would people be offended??? Well.... I don't give a ****. (hehehe)

Don't burn bridges just because you know you can. (",)

One of my favorite band. (",)

"Dush""Pow""Thud"

This time I am a bit slow in updating my blog, not that there are no stories, there are a lot. However I am not telling or I am choosing only those I can share openly. And mostly there are people who will get offended with what I write, hehehe, a bit constricted right?

Had a discussion with "bee" last night, she said that sometimes I let myself being bullied to do what people want me to do, I just let people push me without fighting back, "bee" said I should at least defend myself from being a pushover. A friend used to call me a "doormat" during my matriculation years, and what did I do back in return, NOTHING. I did nothing, just smile and we are still friends. However before the "doormat" statement, I almost punched a friend in the face when I lost my temper, I purposely missed her face and punched the door. 

A little bird told me learn to say "NO" and stop taking "CRAPS" people are throwing at me. I know that all I do back is just be forthright whenever they address me on anything and just smile back innocently. 

I have amazing friends and "bee" as well that advice me a lot, and I am grateful that they are taking time to listen to me venting out at times, even though I know they have better things to do and perhaps they do feel like slapping me and screaming out "Wake up woman!!!! 

But like Sun Tzu said "Can you imagine what I would do if I could do all I can?" &; "The supreme art of war is to subdue the enemy without fighting"  

Definition : pushover - one that easily defeated and taken advantage off

                  : doormat - one who submit meekly to domination and mistreatment of others. 

She knows.

Yesterday statement made by my mum enforced my assumption that she knows. Previously she made remarks and jokes about it, so I prefer not to take it seriously, however last night when I was watching the news in between that report she said "Ha dengar tu, you should know what is right and what is wrong."

There and then, I can hear a tiny voice said "Yes, your mum knows".

My dad

On the 19th we celebrated my dad's 60th birthday. When we were growing up, he never showed his softer side. I guess having an army officer as your father, discipline is something that he tends to emphasize. I never miss a day of class and I would make sure that I would always get a single digit position in my class, just for him to sign my report card. There were a lot of things I did with my dad, even restoring an old car was our project for quite sometimes.  My dad make sure that all his daughters grow up as confident, strong, and independent women.  At least this year, my siblings managed to "caked" my dad with icing and all. And it was fun. (",)

"Mr. Hyde"

A lot of things happened that made me a bit confuse. I am a very defensive person when it comes to someone I love and care let it be my family, my relationship and even my friends. However I only act in that manner if I feel what being said require rectification. Sometimes confrontation gets the best of me, however I would try my best to give resolution that would benefit both parties.  It is not because I want to have the last say, or not because I want to win the confrontation, it is just because when it comes to the matter of the heart the brain tend to shut down fully.  So before my brain log off and I become "Mr Hyde" on everyone, providing solution and settling the issues would be the best choice. Discussion is always better than confrontation.

Crash & Burn

I had an interesting conversation with my first crush today, it has been a while since we catch up. "S" will be leaving for Perth in June to pursue PHD. I am happy for "S" and "S" was the first to get to know the real me. After two years of knowing each other, I confessed to "S" that I had crush on "S" the day we met. At first it was awkward to act normal then it became bearable, and we became close friends.  I overcome my crush towards "S" the day "S" said we should be friends and I respect that.

However our friendship went through rough patches recently mostly because of her being too insensitive and my tendency to over react about everything. "S" brought up the time I used to call "S" sayang, I just laughed and said "I called most of my students sayang as well". "S" thought I meant it romantically, and was very skeptic of my answer. I told "S" "People need to stop thinking that I would react emotionally upon rejection, it's not like I am going to break down and cry when you said that we should be only friends, my world do not end there, never talk like I am going to crash and burn just when things are not going my way". And I said it with a smile of satisfaction on my face... (",)

Masterpiece

Today's my day was very productive, as you can see above. I draw when I am stress or when I am bored. Owh well at least it kept me occupied during my training........  hehehe

Lazy

For the past few days I am lazy. I don't know why I seem to lose all of my interest to do my work, and they are piling up. Office work, assignments, freelance gigs, anything that require me to move or to think a lot. People has expectations for me to finish the work, but every time I look at the the books, the paperwork, the minutes, all that passed through my mind was blank. "Bee" is concern but at same time trying to be supportive. Because I am an individual that can't be nagged. I guess every one must have their lazy day.... Mine just happen to be this week. 

Cat...cat and more cats

Adorable to the max!!

Old times...

When I was taking this picture it brought me back to my primary schools years. I can still remember the song that I learned during music class and that was about 22 years ago. (man!!! I sound old)..hehehe

Lihat nun jauh di sana 

Tekun petani kerja,

Buah padi masak kuning 

Isteri kerjasama,

Potong memotong membanting padinya 

Bercerailah tangkai jerami,

Dulu padi ditumbuk dan ditampi

Kini mesin jadi pengganti.

Nogori

"Hobin Jang Hobin"

Went groceries shopping with my mum yesterday, saw this at the store and my mum said 

"So the negeri sembilan".. heheheh

Skip, pause, off & play

Had a conversation with a classmate about marriage. I don't know why people seems to enjoy talking to me about getting married, or about relationship. 

She told me that someone asked for her hand in marriage however she never met the person yet she contemplates that maybe he is the one. She said that "I am not that strong in my faith, I need guidance and I believe that a man can provide that as well as security and comfort". She asked my opinion, all I can say was "It is your life, even if  you ask 10 or 20 person, it will come to you to have the final say, but now I think that you have decided to accept the proposal, you just want to know if others share your opinion as well".

She is still young around the age of 25, yet she feels that she cannot live without a man. She has to have a man to be whole.  The conversation prolonged for 10 minutes.

Marriage is not like watching a CD, you can skip the part you like, you can pause the moments as you please, or you can just switch it off when it is not to your liking. All you can do is press play and hope for the best. 

Numbers

Last night was my statistic class, how I squirm having to go to class and listening to my lecturer talking about numbers for 3 hours. However with this lecturer, he will always finish early, so last night we finished our class at 7.30. I am not owkey with that because no matter how much I dislike statistic class I prefer it to be full in 3 hours (6.00 - 9.00 p.m.). 

Number is never my forte even when I was in school, I still remember changing my F to B in the report card. Even one year I hid and lied to my mum that my teacher misplaced my report card.



Well at least last night seeing numbers made my night, he returned back my test paper and I smiled, not because I managed to score high or full mark it is just that I managed to score marks. ..Hehehe.

Love is blind...

A love story of a cat and a pineapple. (",)

You are my sunshine...

You are my only one....

I love you, pineapple!!

So so childish...

I get that office drama is something that no one can run from. It is everywhere. However, you still have a choice of (a) either to indulge in it or (b) to just ignore it totally. My option would  be (b).  

A few of my colleagues really openly despise a.k.a.k  for the reasons that I do understand, but I don't make it my business to be a part of the mutiny a.k.a "busy bodying" about her life. Heck I don't care at all, she can jump, swim or hop for all I care. They, on the other hand keep on looking for dirt that can be talked or fumed the existing disliking of a.k.a.k. Today I received this text message while I was occupying myself with work,

 "Naz, cuba buat2 tanya a.k.a.k ada kat ***** ke tidak? Try call *****, buat2 tanya diaorang. Thanks!"

My first thought was, "What the f**k!! Where the heck do they think here is, high school!!!" Some people just never grow up.

Best friend

I never had a best friend when I was growing up, I found it hard to get emotionally attached to someone when you know that you will be moving out at anytime.  It reflects through my attitude when making friends. I have close friends, but they are not my best friends. Then I found someone who shared most of what I like, so we became best friend.  However, friendship doesn't have any value when a man is involved. And I got dumped.  It seems like there is no place for me in the picture if boyfriends or girlfriends don't like me. 

So I hung a sign "Only serious business, not a pit stop".