I've been educated.

The title for today's entry is a bit weird; this is because I learn a lot during my tenure in JB. It started a bit slow, but I ended with some good friends. When you are friends with those who are knowledgeable in certain aspect of medicine as well as life, you will be educated in so many ways. Each and every day here I will learn new topics, from work, life, education even in sex. All of the points and issue discuss are not conversation without points everything is related, and I do take some of the pointers and practicing it towards a healthy life. Now, I am learning to manage my food intake so it will be balance, as well as all the necessary exercises for me to keep fit and healthy. I will miss all of those close to me here in JB, since this week will be my last week. Look on the bright side at least when I leave, all the backstabber and bitches, will be left behind. Thanks to Lucy, now I am well educated in the field of *** education. Hehehe.

Bitches and Backstabbers

Bitches and backstabber can come in any form, small, big, innocent, conniving, sometimes it’s the people who you least expected. Its true never judge a book by its cover, so never judge a person just by what they appear to be. I am a bit annoyed with the bitches and backstabber at my current employment. It’s not my fault that they can't do their job, that they are so fucking incompetent. I learnt through experiences to have the knowledge that I have now, how to multitask and micro managed and I applied what I have and I shared it with other. Well if you are complacent for far too long, any good and positive changes would seem to be a taboo. It seem like my presence here has been viewed as a threat for certain individual as if I am gunning for their posts, believe me when I say the reason why I am working is just to ensure that my intention of furthering my master is within reach, not to sit comfortably and point finger ordering others on what to do, but you yourself is as blind as a bat. Taking credit for other people ideas and sucking up to the administration are also part of the working culture. All I know is that, I can be the best of friend and the worst of enemy. Try me, and you will know. 

Wonder of Reading

This commercial touches me in so many ways. I hope that it will do the same for all of you.

Ctrl + alt + delete

How many times do you ever wish that life was easy as a click of a mouse, a tap of the keyboard, or any functions that we can easily choose to iron out anything that is a mess in our life. Wishful thinking. Well, I am wishing it today, my act of telling a friend the outcome off all the rules and criticisms that I received have let me to lose a friend. Sometimes I don't know what others want from me, I am who I am, at least the honesty that was told to me is appreciated, but indirectly I became reserved from my true self. I am talkative person, I like to have a conversation with anyone, and sometimes I can be a bit pushy and annoying but doesn't mean that I don't respect others. I have my own train of thoughts, I don't find cartoons as stupid and I don't find those who don't know who Beethoven is as musically blind, for me, everyone is given the equal right to practice who they are, I don't think homosexuality is a disease, and being single is a matter of choice. I laugh at my own jokes and others even though sometimes they are not funny at all, I smile all the time, and talk to myself when I am thinking. 

Well, everything is in terms of acceptance, look at others by not judging them, who are we to play judge, jury and executioner. (A reminder for me as well). 


Ctrl + alt + delete.. (Nothing happen) Owh, well, life goes on.

My own little corner

I did not update my blog for a few days, not because I don’t have the time, but I was occupied with my surrounding, my office surrounding to be precise. The inhabitants of the office during 8.00 - 5.30 are only 25 individuals, different working background and experience. I am narrowing down to my department, the academic department, which consist of 13 individuals. Even though the numbers are minimal but the dramas are massive. It seems like each and every day there will be a different episode, a continuance of conflict, disagreements, love, hate, all the recipes you need for a drama series. 

Today, the title of the drama would be "The Case of the Newspaper". It all started with a simple issue of taking the newspaper back home, in which it stirred a lot of dissatisfaction, so the issue was brought up to the upper management, and dealing with it a memo was distributed. The memo acted as action of reprimanding the culprit not to do it again. That memo alone created different reactions all over the office. Some said that it was stupid to issue out a memo relating to a newspaper, other said that, it was the right action to do. A person asked me my view on the issue, and all I can say was "No comment".  Well, the view asking activity did not stop with me, in was spreading to the other staff, just like rallying votes for an election. I did not commented because for me I think that everything should be handle professionally not personally, I guess everyone made mistake that contribute to the drama, the person who took the newspaper home (should ask everyone before taking), the person that confide to the upper management (should talk to the newspaper snatcher first), and the upper management (should think before issuing a memo for something as petty as a 1.50 cents newspaper).

And I observed all this drama , it’s not that I am anti-social, I do mingle and socialize with my colleagues, and I enjoy their company everyday at the office, when I do my work I just prefer to do my work, with my music, my headset and my laptop at my own little corner. 

Three.

I kind of enjoyed myself today, my work went well, I helped my friends at the skills lab, and we had the time of our life. Most of us are stressed due to back to back or continuous accreditations, another terms for work, work and nonstop work. So, we laughed the whole day just to cheer or to keep our spirit up. Problems are always there in any workplace, like I said to keep myself sane "The worst of place to work is the best of teacher". 

I received tons of good news today, 3 news to be exact: (Chronologically)

1. I was called back to Nilai on the 17, (but I requested it to be on the 31st, I just feel I need to settle few things before I can leave J.B.)

2. I got called for 3 interviews for 3 different posts that I can't remember when I applied, 

3. I lost 3 kilogram (finally) 

Well like my mum said, try not to be over zealous in terms of happiness, control your feeling, sometimes sadness may follow (God forbid). But what I know is that, I have been a bit down with my friend's issue, some good news maybe all what I need. (Maybe a lot). I learnt a lot in terms of equipment use by nurses, all they need to know in their work, believe me when I said that I may not be able to be as committed as they are, so I do hope all the future nurses will cherish all the experiences and knowledge, never waste even a single minutes, and how ever hard it is, courtesy must always be practice, we, by the way are Malaysians, famous for courtesy and etiquettes.

A long walk.

I took a long walk today at a recreational park here in JB. Nature has its special way of soothing the uneasy mind. My friend was right I tend to over think everything and sometimes overreact as well.  I guess now all I can do is wait and hope I won't be giving out white roses any time soon. The walk was memorable (I even have the bruises to prove it); I spend an hour exploring nature's beauty.

                                                   

P/s: Wish I had a real camera

A white rose

"All I want is a white rose"

Am I in denial, of what I know and about what is going to happen? It started a few days back, when a friend of mine requested on a white rose to be given to him on a certain occasion. I asked the reason why, and all he said I will know when the time is right. He kept on saying that it will finally give him the balance he needed in life. I was trying my best to avoid not prolonging the conversation, because I don't know how to answer him, he kept on talking about roses, whether it would suit with black,  and how his parents are well off without him. Life for him now is hard, and there is nothing much I can do, I hate the feeling of being helpless and sitting on the side wondering what's going to happen next. I can't get hold of him for numerous reasons, he contacted me through a chat line on facebook, and his final words were, "I miss my mom and dad".

Looking back at the conversation, I know that he meant to say good bye, I was acting dumb throughout the conversation by making stupid statements about hanging out after my tenure in JB end and all other craps, so that he will not keep thinking on suicide. I know that I upset him but in my heart I keep repeating “Dear God, please give him the strength to continue his life, please don't let him take his own life as the only way out of his problems". 

The statement that I will never forget was “One day you will beg to listen to my voice and I will not answer back, all you will have is silence". It's not like that I don't care for him, I do, but I don't want to encourage him that suicide is the final answer. The honest truth is, I don't know what to do and what to say, not even a degree or a master or the wisest justification would prepare me for this. My hope is that he will stay strong and survive, don't make me regret of not having the final conversation. When I joke that I may not be able to give him by hand and can I courier it, he said "You will not do that, I know you, you will come and I will have my white rose". 
Yesterday was our last conversation, but I do hope that he will say hello to me for the coming days. 

To all the women of the world..

Pretty women wonder where my secret lies.

I'm not cute or built to suit a fashion model's size

But when I start to tell them,

They think I'm telling lies.

I say,

It's in the reach of my arms

The span of my hips,

The stride of my step,

The curl of my lips.

I'm a woman

Phenomenally.

Phenomenal woman,

That's me.

I walk into a room

Just as cool as you please,

And to a man,

The fellows stand or

Fall down on their knees.

Then they swarm around me,

A hive of honey bees.

I say,

It's the fire in my eyes,

And the flash of my teeth,

The swing in my waist,

And the joy in my feet.

I'm a woman

Phenomenally.

Phenomenal woman,

That's me.

Men themselves have wondered

What they see in me.

They try so much

But they can't touch

My inner mystery.

When I try to show them

They say they still can't see.

I say,

It's in the arch of my back,

The sun of my smile,

The ride of my breasts,

The grace of my style.

I'm a woman

Phenomenally.

Phenomenal woman,

That's me.

Now you understand

Just why my head's not bowed.

I don't shout or jump about

Or have to talk real loud.

When you see me passing

It ought to make you proud.

I say,

It's in the click of my heels,

The bend of my hair,

the palm of my hand,

The need of my care,

'Cause I'm a woman

Phenomenally.

Phenomenal woman,

That's me. 

Maya Angelou 

Captain Planet and the Planeteers

I accidentally watched that cartoon this evening on Channel 9. That was my favorite cartoon when I was in primary school, and cartoons were the reason why I am good in English. Back then there were no subtitles, everything was in English, adapt or you will lose all the wonders of television, so I chose to adapt. From that point onward I studied on my own, making dictionary my best companion ever. I would spend my Saturday and Sunday morning in front of the television watching cartoons and learning the language. Who said, cartoons are not educational. Beside my love for books, cartoons are my Achilles heel. 

Captain Planet was an icon for children then, to do their part in conserving the earth. It shows how children can help in making sure Mother Nature would survive the raging development, and that was over 20 years ago. Kinda a foreshadowing of the future how pollutions of all sorts will massively invade earth. 

I sat on the couch, and watched until the cartoon finished, with a smile on my face, reminiscing my childhood past.

I don't care how other perceives cartoons, for me they rock!!! Then, now and always... hee. Like Captain Planet used to say “The Power is yours”.