My "makcik - ness"

What is "makcik-ness"? It is something that can be associated with your attitude and how you carry yourself in certain situation, more or less, it is your reaction either verbal or non verbal (body language). My "makcik-ness" is very transparent when I am thinking about something, because I tend to over think everything and that will lead to a lot of conspiracy theories, in which that theory will lead me to say or do something that should not be considered. Take for example, the day I was caught off guard by my mother, it doesn't stop there, I thought about the question a bit further the how, why, when, where, all the wh-questions, and that caused me my good night sleep for that night. I also have the tendency of  thinking too much whether a person would actually like me or not due to my minor issue about my self-esteemed, because I don't view myself as beautiful nor as interesting enough for people to get to know, but I keep advising people "Beauty is in the eye of the beholder", how ironic is that? Maybe I should stop to think too much and try to smell the flowers along the way instead thinking about what awaits me at the end of the line. Life is a journey it is not a destination.... See, my "makcik-ness" may kick in at anytime, so better I just stop writing...hahaha. 

If am in "makcik-ness" mode, would you love me just the same....... (Makcik naz) - (",)