Ssshhh...secret..

I would do anything for my mum. I do try to give her some pocket money for her to spend for herself and I have been doing that since the day I started working, I guess all of us do. It just that I went through rough patches few years back, it put a dent in my financial standing, and I was unable to contribute as much as my other siblings sometimes I didn't contribute at all. And I felt guilty. Mostly I would be pick on by my siblings as if I don't care much for my mum, I know that they meant that as a reminder for me to monitor my financial, but I don't know if they realize that the comments they made really hurt. Every time Raya, or any family events, I would give to my mum, and  tell her, don't tell anyone, it is between you and me. Anytime my mum request for me to buy things, for the house, such as breakfast if my mum wants a rest from cooking, I would gladly do so, and tell my mum don't tell my siblings. A lot of occasions I would tell my mum, it is a secret between us. My mum knows that sometimes when my sisters commented or criticized me, that it hurts my feeling, and she will go the kitchen and make me a hot tea, and sit in front of the television with me and make silly comments or jokes just to make me smile. I would smile back to her and put my finger on my lips and said shhhhh.... it is a secret between us. 

Surprise!!!!

Now I write a lot, about anything and everything. 

So, it has been 7 days since the New Year. A lot of changes happened, till this date, surprisingly most of my colleagues can actually come to work early, as early as 8.00 a.m., 30 minutes early from our designated working hours. Not just that, they even go back home late or sharp on time instead of playing truant. Well, it has been brought to my attention that my Deputy Dean has voiced our his concern that he was disappointed that we misused or took advantages of his good intention of not imposing strict working rules and regulation for those under the department. I guess people assumed that no matter what is his position, he would not even raised his voice nor dictate any disciplinary action. Time change, people change, and some changes come with surprises. (",)

(Silent scream)

Argh!!!!@#!###%#$^%$&%^&%$&$*(^&(*^&*)*(_*(&%^&%$^#$%!!@#!@%#$%$%#%$@ argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

A gay cat...

I bought collars for Kankan and Dodo today. Kankan is the one I rescued from an engine of a car, and I gave him to "Bee" as a present since "Bee" loves blonde cat so much. Dodo, is the one I rescued with D after our Hari Raya visiting to Sue's house, and  both cats are staying with me. I bought Kankan, a pink color collar and Dodo, a blue one. When I put them on, my mum looked at me and asked "Why is Kankan wearing pink and Dodo wearing blue? I answered "Well the color suits them both". My mum just smiled and said "Kankan is so so gay".  

My mum and her gay cats theory..... hehehe

P/s : 

Kankan  is wearing pink because "Bee" requested that everything with Kankan has to be pink. It's "Bee's" favorite color. Even though we are no longer partners, I am respecting the request. As for Dodo, D said that Dodo should wear blue, so blue it is. (",)

Facebook

Avoiding my facebook for the time being. All my married friends from my school are posting pictures of the children first day of school, with a tagline "mummy and daddy are proud of you""anak abah dah besar" "macam tulah anak mummy".. and etc. I am not being a scrooge, but they tend to reminisce even about their first day of school.  

The - ing process. (",)

Lying, tossing, turning, thinking, tossing, turning, thinking, deciding, imagining, talking, lying, talking, thinking, waking, sitting, standing, switching, sitting, thinking, composing, typing, thinking, talking, tapping, scratching, thinking, complaining, grunting, typing, day dreaming, sighing, sighing, sighing, composing, referring, scratching, sighing, and head banging......

This is me contemplating about my assignment which is due today. The moment I went to bed, until I woke up this morning. 

Where are you going???

Since my resignation was made known to most of the staff here at  my current employment, I have been asked a lot of questions to where I am going. It seems that issue of me, resigning was discussed in the monthly meeting among all of the Head of Services.  I had no intention of informing anyone here, to what my plan is. Today, my emcee partner asked "Are serious about leaving?" "Is your decision final?" "You have potential and it is waste for you to leave".  I just smiled entertaining all those questions. I have been called for a meeting with the executive director tomorrow to discuss on my resignation. The tiny voice inside my head said "Owh man!!! resigning is tiring, it is a lot of work".

Almost

A lot of things happened today. I almost got into an accident, not once but three times on the same day. Since my accident early last year, I became a bit edgy, especially with people who stopped suddenly, and people who followed my car closely. Twice it happened today, the second time, I can even hear the tires screeching. After the almost missed incident,I felt like my heart was jumping out of my chest. Before that occur, a crazy man was pissed at me for driving slowly and he was trying to pin my car to the railing by the side of the road. After all those, instead of continuing with my journey to Damansara, i turned and drove back home.

I guess I am still psychologically affected after being sandwiched last year between a Nissan and a Toyota, due to the driver of the Toyota lost control of his car and hit mine. I thought I was perfectly fine, until today, when the sounds of screeching tires almost put me in a panic mode.   

Normally, if I encountered anything like this, I would immediately dial a number and just talk until I feel better. But today, I just froze looking at my phone and wondering who should I call for comfort. Owh well, live and let live. 

The hobbit: The Unexpected Journey

This is my personal summary of the movie;

It is a story of 14 men's journey to get from point A to point B, and they encountered many obstacles, and fought many monsters and enemies in the process. When they almost reach their destination.... *to be continued*

The end.

It was a fun movie to watch tho.. (",)

A whole new me!!!

The first post of the year, should not be depressing.
Chin up!!! It is new year, new things, new hopes, new dreams. And whole new me!!