I am home for the weekend. Since I moved out, it is a ritual that I must follow. I still remember the plan why I looked for a place of my own in the first place, well plan changed. This week I went back yesterday, after attending a company event that ended at 10.00 p.m. At first, my plan was just to hang out at my place, to give it a try for the first time, but on Friday, I ended up wandering and lingering around a shopping center nearby because of one reason, and I confessed it to a friend "I don't want to go back to an empty house".
Perhaps I moved out too soon, the reason for the move was to give space for me, for "us" to actually grow. However there is no more "us" just me and an empty house. Owh well, I think it's just that moment in time when everything flooded in, the memories, the promises and the plans. Out of all that had happened, it changes a part of me, and makes me more skeptical and doubtful in making plans, making promises, or even making commitments. Like I said to Zue "I am burnt, only now I know to what extend".
6 comments:
hey don't regret getting your own place. it has not been easy for you to get your own house. many things in life we can't control. what's done is done. some day you will make plans and it will materialize. insyaallah.
amin.fighting
eliza
thanks!! It is that moment in time I guess. In the process of letting go, it is harder than it looks.
It's tough when a part of your dream comes true but the most important part didn't. Just remember that it can only get better.
*hugs*
there's a saying, don't make promises when you're happy. Don't comment when you're angry. All will fall into place in due time :)
thanks 4 the saying..('',)
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