I used this tittle before in my post, now the same feeling emerges. I don't know why it seems like school years all over again. I feel that I am drowning in my own efforts of trying not to live in my sisters' shadows. I always have this low self esteem when being compared to them, well, they do have the brains and the looks. What do I have, what you see is what you get.
Even "bee" is also annoyed listening to me venting out, she said "You are not as positive as you look", and I do agree on that. I just have this sinking feeling that I will always be haunted by my own paranoia of trying to compete with my sisters. I will be invisible yet again, and people will only remember me when they need something to be done. I will always be the "go to guy" but never the center stage, no matter how hard I try. Don't get me wrong I love my sisters to death, I am just venting out. That is all.
2 comments:
think positive....
I understand how you feel. But think positively about this thought about competitiveness: it can drive you to reach your potential and be better than what you are right now.
Don't be like me and become too laid back and tak kisah.
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