Crash & Burn

I had an interesting conversation with my first crush today, it has been a while since we catch up. "S" will be leaving for Perth in June to pursue PHD. I am happy for "S" and "S" was the first to get to know the real me. After two years of knowing each other, I confessed to "S" that I had crush on "S" the day we met. At first it was awkward to act normal then it became bearable, and we became close friends.  I overcome my crush towards "S" the day "S" said we should be friends and I respect that.

However our friendship went through rough patches recently mostly because of her being too insensitive and my tendency to over react about everything. "S" brought up the time I used to call "S" sayang, I just laughed and said "I called most of my students sayang as well". "S" thought I meant it romantically, and was very skeptic of my answer. I told "S" "People need to stop thinking that I would react emotionally upon rejection, it's not like I am going to break down and cry when you said that we should be only friends, my world do not end there, never talk like I am going to crash and burn just when things are not going my way". And I said it with a smile of satisfaction on my face... (",)