The right thing.

"To know what is right and not do it is the worst cowardice" (Confucius)

I can't sleep, hence resulted in this entry. I love to play volleyball, I may not be a superstar but I give my all when I am playing, injuries, and bruises are just mere trade of the game. Something happened tonight during practice that have me think on doing something that is drastic, I am thinking of pulling out from the team. I made the final selection but at a price of sacrificing those who really are dedicated, and committed, never once miss training and always enjoy themselves when practicing. I knew about the list of dropping out some of the players but none of them knew that they are being dropped

I have this theory that I am in the team because I am responsible for the students that made the selection, I am the one who bring them to practices and the one sending them back. I think the fear of losing these students who are amazing players just because I am won't be attending practices are the main issue in our manager's mind. They also lowering their standard or their ethics for giving a place for a very problematic player, a diva in my opinion. I guess winning for them is everything. I am in it because it relaxes me, it keeps me occupied. I may not know what I am about to do is the best thing, but for me it is the right thing. 

I sounded a bit emotional, aren't I? Blame it on my hormones.