A week.

Met with my ED today. His first word when we finally sat down to talk was "Why?". At that moment all the scripts that I have practiced to answer his question seems to be irrelevant, my mind went blank. I paused for a while, then I answered, "I have been offered a new post, by a company in KL and I have made up my mind that I am going to accept the offer". And again he looked at me and asked "Why?". I justified my reasons of why I am leaving and when I was finally finish, calmly he said, "If that is what you want, you should have come to me. I apologized of not seeing your potential before, and it is my mistake. We have worked together, and it would be a lost for me to let you go". I looked at him and smiled. At that time, my heart was getting ready to jump out my chest, and again I replied "I gave myself 2 years here, either I am going to be holding a post or I am going to be doing something new and currently is neither". He gave me few options, asked me to give him a week, and told me that it is the least I can do since I did not see him sooner with my intention then come again and see him after the week has passed. Another week to ponder "to go or not to go".

I never had the opportunity to sit up close and personal with him, but today I can see the lines on his face, how different he was since the first day I saw him giving a speech at the staff assembly. A face of a man who dealt with decisions day in and day out, who has the final word to say "your are fired" or "you are hired".. The thought that crossed my mind was "How he has aged".