Naz : "I feel so alone here. The negativity is totally getting to me. Aku rasa nak menjerit je sebab aku tengah tahan marah"

Sal : ........................

(3.03 p.m.)

I seldom raise my voice, I seldom argue about anything. I do convey my point of view on issues I need to address, I  listen and accept other people's opinion, I try my best to be a good colleague, and when I am given the authority to lead or handle I will do according what is required of me, and I am grateful to what I have in my life. According to a friend I am an eternal optimist.

But today I really feel like shouting at a colleague of mine and wipe off the smirk from her face. It's her responsibility to settle anything related to a training program that is currently being proposed by the admin but all she does is ordering others to settle it and let others take the blame for anything that will happen in the future. Her negativity towards the working environment is rubbing on to all the new staff of the department, and now they are talking bad about the administration, as if they have work there all their life. The funny part is, she talks as if she is so high and mighty and she is untouchable, Mrs. Know It All. She targeted me because I am the only one, not sharing her loathes towards the administration. I can't imagine myself raising my voice or even my hand to another human being so I walked out of the room to take a breather, before I totally lost it. Or I just should do it, it only takes 4 muscles to extend your arm and bitch slap that motherfucker!!!!! (courtesy of "Forget being passive - aggressive").

"Buat kerja complaint, bila time bonus nak pulak" - The sentence I am contemplating of pasting to the windshield of her car, in which I know I would never do.